It's been a hectic few months. Almost 8 months post graduation and I HATE MY JOB.
Okay maybe hate isn't the right word...it's not the job,it's the environment.
Things started off alright in my opinion, i thought everyone was nice and if they weren't, they stayed in their lanes and just did their jobs which is fine by me.Little did i know that there were several reasons why people were the way they were at work.office feuds,enemies etc actually exist and i only got to find out when it happened to me.
From people literally wanting to be spoon fed to those actively throwing you under the bus and making sure it runs you over and over again, it's all happened in the past months.
I'm not the biggest of people physically and i think from that some people might think it's alright to walk over me.a pretty good trick i guess if you wanna shock them one day but i'm not for that.
Have you ever thought you and a co-worker are cool,maybe even friends just to find out that they've been feeding bad info about you to other people,including your boss...literally destroying your whole character to the mentally weak and easily persuaded people of the world?!!
It happened and i was shocked for a whole week i guess because i never expected it from them and also thought i was actually doing them a favour,helping them out with their work.I realized something wasn't right when i tried to make conversation and all i got was the cold shoulder so i thought...okay....SUIT THY SELF.
Next think i knew the boss was giving a long speech about good mannerism.For some reason,i feel when someone comments on my upbringing....i feel a deep insult on behalf of the "women in my life" (see previous posts) who in my opinion did a good job raising me. That being said...i left that day with a hard lesson i'd never regret learning at the early stage in my career. the Only thing i regret is not telling my own side of the story. I was too shocked and angry to even utter a word. Did they forget to mention the part of events where they messed up? I guess they had a dementia-moment going on there when their actions ended in two lives lost.
Friendship is something very important to me and if you can't be trusted in small matters that test our honesty and loyalty to each other....you aren't reliable in major issues. Maybe i'm too extreme but it's saved me thus far from greater disappointments.You'd think it ended there...well you're mistaken because next thing i'm hearing is one of the worst possible gossip you'd want going around your work place. " I'm a difficult person to work with." Like...did you not make your point when you ran off to the boss to tell partial truths,now you have to build up your shackalies (shack of lies) to live in?!
In short..." Never hurry to offer help or advice to someone who didn't ask for it. Value yourself,your words and your thoughts."~ Omar Khayyam
My one "good" trait is ignoring someone to the extend of them actually questioning their existence. I start living in a world where you don't exist at all...you're lucky if they find fossils of you in my world..even the dinosaurs would have a better chance.
Having to be professional is hard when you're pushed to the limit so I've learnt to stay away from situations that agitate me,people that don't like me...which works out pretty well because,who has time and energy to force relations...certainly not me.
I'm still new at this work place thing..maybe it's not right how i deal with things....but so far,so good.
Final thoughts...not everyone is happy with your progress, basically the smile on your face every morning could be the one thing that just pisses them off...i don't see how there can be competition at a place like the hospital when we're all working towards the same mission but like i said...i'm new maybe i'm just not aware.
Share your thoughts....how do you deal with drama when you're on duty?